Wednesday, February 2, 2011

A Morning Visit with our Little Girl

This morning we had an unexpected Doctor's appointment, which turned out to be fine, and things are just as they were,nothing new, but it gave us an opportunity to see our little girl again. With us being at 14 weeks, this was the last time they said that the baby would fit on the whole screen. This visit was to our regular OB, who had not seen us since our CVS test. She reiterated how rare this (a hygroma) was and how she doesn't see it often. She then asked "So what are you going to do?" I was taken back hearing those words. I explained to her that we planned to carry this baby as long as God allows. I think I was a little caught off guard by her question, since we hadn't really thought twice, but I realized we have not seen her since our appointments and that the last time we left her office we were still in shock and there wasn't much talking that day, other than directions to the specialist. But I certainly declared our intent very clearly and she smiled.

I usually cannot bear to watch the ultrasounds, because to me its just a reminder of what we may not ever see or get, however, today was different. I didn't shed a tear and looked in awe. (I always look, I'm just usually crying the entire time). Our little girl was sucking her thumb and had a strong heartbeat, and plenty of fluid. Her hygroma was still there, though we are not sure of measurements or anything at this time. We will know more when we get the final CVS results (hopefully this week), and when we see the specialist next week.

It has not been an easy few days since our weekend getaway, a lot of unknown, and a lot of scary terms and things that are floating around make for a lot of fear and concern. But we try to get through each day being gently reminded, we must trust and seek peace in the giver of life. Our daily prayer is for the hygroma to resolve, for a wholly healthy baby. We know God's plan for us will be laid out by Him and Him alone. We know that we can trust Him because He is the same God that goes before us and has restored trials to us before. Understand, that we know restoration will come no matter the outcome. It's hard to swallow, hard for us sometimes to grasp, but it's something we know without a doubt. This blog started as a path to restoration several years ago, and it will continue to be.

Some have asked how we "know" and we simply have 2 answers; faith and scripture. We must cling to both to survive. Please hear me, this is not meant to be a "bible lesson" in the least, but for those asking, here are the scriptures we put our faith in:

His Will-we know His will will be done by Proverbs 20:24 (A man's steps are directed by the Lord, how can anyone understand his own way?) and Proverbs 16:9 (In his heart, a man plans his course, but the Lord determines his steps)

-we know we can trust Him because Romans 8:28-(All things work for he good of those that love the Lord)and Psalms 32:10 (Many are the woes of the wicked, but the Lord's unfailing love surrounds the man who trusts in Him.)
Proverbs 3:5-6 (Trust in the Lord with all your heart, lean not on your own understanding, in all ways acknowledge him and he will make straight your paths.)

Restoration-We know he will restore this situation (again, no matter the outcome) because
Ecclesiastes 3:11-He makes all things beautiful in his time.
Philippians 1:6-He who began a work in you, will be faithful to complete it.
Psalms 147:3-He heals the brokehearted and binds up their wounds.
Jeremiah 29:1- For I know the plans I have for you,” declares the LORD, “plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future.

That is all the "answers" I can provide to the many that have emailed and asked "where do you get your hope, and faith and belief?" The Word of God is filled with many many more promises but these, some of the simplest ones, are closest to our heart right now. Bless you for wanting to know what we are trusting in. For the ones inquiring, I hope in some way you can use these verses in your own lives for whatever it may be you are seeking and we hope they give the same comfort to you as they supply to us. Frankly, I'm not sure how we'd survive this trial without faith, in fact, I'm not quite sure how anyone lives without it.

Thank you again to our prayer warriors, the emails, posts, meals, flowers, calls and texts. We cannot thank each of you enough! To see a glimpse of what you're a part of praying for, here she is.....


Gage Family said...

BEAUTIFUL PICTURE. much love and continued prayers

coolercorner said...

Thank you so much for posting the picture of your little girl! Precious. Your faith and hop in the Lord is inspiring. Praying for strength and encouragment.


Marlo said...

Prayers and Thoughts for you all daily. Love the photo :-)

Kad and Peaches said...

She's beautiful. Thank you so much for sharing so openly- I admire that so much, and can't imagine how difficult that may be. Your faith will do more than you could ever see. God is using you both, and your baby girl, to do more than you could ever imagine. I will continue praying for that healthy, whole precious baby. Love you, Peach.

Natalie said...

Oh, Jennifer! She is so beautiful. We are still praying and believing.
God is who He says He is, He can do what He says He can do, Your baby is who God says she is, The Martin family can do all things through Christ, and God's Word is ALIVE and ACTIVE in us. WE believe GOD! :) I'm so glad you were able to enjoy seeing her suck her sweet thumb. Isn't it humbling? I love you! Nat

Jessica and Scott Robbins said...

Love and prayers being sent your way. Thank you for sharing the verses :)

Terra said...

Jennifer, Your faith and strength is amazing and so inspiring. You 3 are In my prayers daily!

Love, Terra

Anonymous said...

Sweet Baby Girl!!!! I love her already. I pray for her constantly. I pray for y'all as well.

Melissa said...

Jennifer, A friend shared your blog with me and let me start by saying that God chose wonderful, special people to be this little girl's parents. You will be in my prayers. I have lost babies, but I also have 4 wonderful children. One of whom, while in utero, I was told had significant problems. We, too, would not hear of termination. He was born with NO defects. He was early and did get very sick and the doctors warned us that he wouldn't live and when he proved them all wrong they told us he would have significant physical and mental deficits. Wrong again. He's a big, strong, smart 9 yr old athlete. Please continue to believe that your baby will be made whole. Miracles happen. I live with one every day. As you are experiencing first hand, it is a roller coaster ride. With highs and lows most people will never know. I wish you and your family all the best.

Claire said...

What a cute little thing! The picture is great & I think of you all constantly and continue saying special prayers. xoxo

Sherry Coleman Collins, MS, RD, LD said...

She's beautiful, Jen! I'll keep praying with you.

Caison said...

I am thinkig and praying for ya'll and your precious baby girl. We had a similar situation in our family almost 2 years ago, and the only thing that gets you through is faith. Thank you for sharing your faith so is truely inspiring.

Caison Boozer