Wednesday, March 2, 2011

The Waiting Room

Hello sweet readers. You all are so special and dear to us to continue to surround us with your love. There is not a day that goes by without seeing someone drop by, receiving a surprise text or post or getting a card (LOVE going to the mailbox now!)or coming home to the sweet gifts that "magically" appear on our porch from our dear friends and even "friends of friends." We continued to be humbled by your sweet gestures.

The past few weeks have been the "waiting game" for sure. We have had some great weekend getaways, and our lives have been full of fun with loved ones, as we continue to pray constantly for our sweet little girl. Our nerves and the feeling of anxiousness have certainly shown up the past few days as we wait for our "big appointment" this Friday, March 4 at our specialist's office. This is our 18 week specialist appointment and this is where they hope to see the heart chambers and the anatomy clearly as she has had some time to grow. This should be a very "telling" appointment. Fear consumes us in waves of what "could be" and then we have waves of peace and calmness. I'm happy to say that the peace and calm far outweighs our fears. We still have our breakdowns and talk about what we will do in certain situations, as far as trying to be prepared as much as possible, but ultimately we surrender to the one that holds us in the palm of His hand. It may sound crazy to some, but really, it is all we have. It's the only "sure thing" right now in our lives, and we trust it with all of our being. He is not going to forsake us. He never has and He never will.

We have run through a million scenarios in our mind, because in our shoes right now there are a lot of them. We hope by each appointment we can eliminate some more and have a better understanding of what we are to face. Day to day life, seems to go on as normal as possible, which a sense of normalcy is nice. We smile at my belly that's starting to show, we try not to think too much into the future, because our minds would be utterly crazy if we did. Just too much unknown. This has put a lot of things in perspective. If we weren't in this situation I think we'd be MORE stressed because it would be unnecessary stress. The stress of preparing a nursery, having the right car seat, having enough money, having childcare. And right now, our minds don't even think that far, we are truly living this day by day. It's hard not to look into the future and hope, but we try not to left our minds drift there too much. We have so much hope and pray we have a miracle to show off one day, to take to the park, to church in a bonnet, to buy everything pink for, but we relish in the fact that we have her today, in me now, and we just go with that day to day. We lay our hands on my stomach and pray for her daily, more than once. Jimmy has been so sweet and such a comfort. A rock of strength, but yet tender enough to hurt and share in feelings. It has been a road we didn't choose to travel, but there is nobody I'd rather walk this road with. His prayers for us and his love for us already is amazing and is exactly what our Lord calls the man to be in scripture. I'm in awe that already, with a child in the womb, he is fulfilling what is asked of him biblically. This blessing alone amazes me daily and leaves me with soft tears of gratitude each evening when nightly prayers are said.

The feeling of peace we have is a peace you cannot explain (the peace that surpasses all understanding) as we mentioned before, its your prayers, your support and your love. Do understand, we have our moments but they are few and far between right now and that is so nice. We are at times downright scared to death of what will occur Friday but those times pail in comparison with our peacefulness that is radiating our home right now.

We pray for good results Friday, that they are able to get good readings from the ultrasound and that we will be prepared and comforted in all we face. We will absolutely update after our appointment Friday morning with our specialist at Northside. Thank you for all your amazing love you continue to show us. When I was a little girl we use to sing "They will know we are Christians by our LOVE" and believe me, there is no doubt at the Martin house! We are fully surrounded by some amazing, loving, Christian folks :). We are blessed by each of you.

With much love, hope and faith,
Jennifer & Jimmy


HappyascanB said...

Oh how I pray for y'all ALL THE TIME. Love you dearly, precious one.

lesley foster said...

May the God of hope fill you with all joy and peace as you trust in Him, so that you may overflow with hope by the power of the Holy Spirit. Romans 15:13

We are certainly continuing to pray for the 3 of you and we have not lost sight on what a big day Friday is for you. I continue to pray that God would wrap His almighty hands around her tiny little body and completely heal her! We love you all!!

Kad and Peaches said...

I love you guys, and are continuing to pray for your little miracle baby. Looking forward to the GOOD news tomorrow! ~Peach

Susan said...

Hey Jennifer-- I am so glad to read this update and look forward to more information after your doctor's visit on Friday. I think about you guys every day. I am praying for you. Praying for a miracle, of course, but thankful that we know that none of this is a surprise to God. He knows everything about it. He knows you and Jimmy. And he knows your daughter. He loves you all and will stay by your side through it all, no matter what happens.

I love you bunches--Susan :)

Jessica and Scott Robbins said...

We are continuing to pray for you, Jimmy, and Little Girl Martin. Please let us know if you need ANYTHING! We love you! XOXO

Claire said...

bud, keeping you all in special prayer tonight and especially in the morning. Here's what I read every morning on my fridge: "May today there be peace within. May you trust God that you are exactly where you are meant to be. May you not forget the infinite possibilities that are born of faith. May you use those gifts that you have received, and pass on the love that has been given you. May you be content knowing that you are a child of God. Let this presence settle into your bones, and allow your soul the freedom to sing, dance, praise, and love. It is there for each and every one of us."
You all have done so much of this and are a true testament to others. We love you so much!